why i'm taking a break
Yesterday was the most upsetting day since I had to make the awful decision to quit my job as a wilderness ranger for the season because of my heart issue. I got a phone call from an old coworker that left me sobbing- I had no idea that people could be so mean.
He had a lot to say about how I'm ruining wilderness values by teaching more and more people about wilderness & how I'm increasing the flow of visitors to Desolation Wilderness- which he thinks is bad. I think it's GREAT. I want as many people to get out and enjoy Wilderness & America's wild lands as possible. I just also want them to know how to respect those lands.
He said how embarrassed he was about the Sac Bee Article, how "everyone at the Forest Service" is mad at me for talking to the media about wilderness, & that my old boss "hates" me. I can only guess that he's acting out of spite or anger though because his bosses loved it & I was told that the PR officer for the forest liked it too.
He asked me to take him off of my references because he was embarrassed that he referred me & I ended up having to quit because my heart complications that came on super suddenly.
He told me that I should stop EVERYTHING on social media & stop telling people that I'm a wilderness ranger when I had to quit for the season. Nope. No way. I'm just now starting to get a voice for wilderness and I won't stop now. Once a wilderness ranger, ALWAYS a wilderness ranger. And I won't stop.
Anyway, there was a lot more he had to say and it was really traumatic for me. I put him on speakerphone for a minute so my family could figure out why I was sobbing & they couldn't believe how hateful he was being.
So now I'm going to take a small leave from Instagram & blogging to compose myself and decide what to do from here. Definitely going to snuggle with my fiancé during this big storm hitting the Sierras while I work on my emotions after that awful awful phone call.